Full moon

Hey readers.

Today I wanted to share some things that have been on my mind and some observations I’ve made about the collective energy at present hand.

From July 22-August 22 the sun will be entering Leo. Today and for the next month, there’s an infusion of exuberant, outgoing energy. The Sun is moving into the bold, creative sign of Leo. It’s a time to be inspired and encouraged to dive into your interests and what fires you up - and to let yourself shine. Today, I want every single one of you to give yourself permission. Focus on yourself and your body’s needs. If you’re feeling more restless than usual or you’re exhausted, choose to rest. Most of us humans in modern day times have been conditioned to feel guilty or ashamed for rest, as it is not a priority in the eyes of society. This is why it’s important to look after your own needs and do check ins with self. Do not feel guilty, do not feel ashamed… feel proud and empowered that you are choosing yourself. Every living thing in this world goes through cycles of growth, rest, death, and rebirth. Allow yourself to take the time needed in order to fully surrender to the flow.

If it makes anyone feel less alone… I had so many things I’m supposed to be doing for today written in my planner. My body woke up exhausted and was telling me to slow down and take a breathe. In the past when I’ve felt this way and ignored my intuition on what my body was needing, I end up burning out which then forces me to go into a much longer, deeper resting cycle that usually comes with some chaos and destruction… we’ve all been there. So, instead of repeating past patterns, I chucked all that anxiety and guilt into my fuck it bucket, moved my to do list to tomorrow, and took the day off :))

Now I’m simply relaxing today, sitting outside and listen to the birds, sipping on some tea, journaling… a slow peaceful evening is all I need. I am very grateful to be alive, what a wonderful journey indeed. I will also be making sure to set some clear intentions for this new energy in the new moon. I’m excited for this next chapter, I can feel it in my bones.

If you have a hard time doing self check ins, try to take a deep breathe and think of 3 things you’re grateful for, 3 things you love about yourself, and 3 emotions you’ve been feeling recently, and 3 words to describe how your body feels. These questions should help guide you into a more self aware state of mind in order to authentically check in with yourself.

ALWAYS REMEMBER

No matter how many mistakes you make or how slow you progress, you are still way ahead of everyone who isn't trying.

I LOVE YOU GUYS. I’m proud of you. Keep doing exactly what you need to be doing and everything will work out in your favor. ❤️

Brain Food

Sup you little fucks, 

I hope everyone is having a splendid day. My goal today has been to take things less seriously and calm my anxiety. So for those of you who don't know I'm a barber at Snipp's Mens Lounge up in Park City right now, and the clientele we get is CRAZYYY. These people are the topest of the dogs. I'm talking multi-millionaires who have houses all over the world, with multiple streams of passive income and all the time in the world to spare. As I was cutting one of my clients today he was telling me about a fragrance line that he's building right now. He's from LA but just moved to Utah and aside from owning some businesses he's also a realtor. So I decided to take the opportunity to say fuck it and tell him about my dream to become a videographer. MAN'S OFFERED TO CONTRACT ME INTO HIS NEW COMPANY AS A CONTENT CREATOR. See what happens when you carry yourself authentically?! I had all the reasons to not mention my passion for film, I don't have a website up and running yet, my prices are all over the place, I don't have all the equipment that other professionals do etc... so I took all of those, threw um in my fuck it buck it and brought it into discussion anyways. The thing that Ive been realizing recently is that the world is in fact not against me, I was against me. Now that I'm on my own team and i don't care what other people think, opportunities are just falling into my lap. And by being my authentic self i am attracting people into my life who love me for me and want to support me because of the kind of person i am. How cool is that? Once you surrender to the chaos, and get in the flow... things start happening. Dreams start coming true, and your reality changes right before your eyes.

While I was on my way home yesterday I was staring at the mountains with such admiration. Nature really puts everything into perspective for me, that's why I recommend forest bathing to anyone who struggles with tunnel vision or extreme anxiety. (I'll do another post furthering what I've discovered about forest bathing, and what that even means haha. Keep your eye out for it.)

Sorry ADHD moment, we went off track for a second there... As I was saying, I was on my way home looking at the mountains and it inspired me to write about how I felt at that moment... "To be yet another speck of a creature, on this mysterious, riveting floating matter, in an ever-expanding universe thus full of constant energetic flows, stillness, excitement, explosiveness, passion. We're all simply doing the perfect balanced yet unpredictable dance called life. How special, cherish every moment."

It's true... Instead of trying to be perfect, happy, and positive all the time... Just simply be, and you'll finally be set free. Simply learn to enjoy the rollercoaster at its every moment and you will be the one truly winning, truly living. 

 GO LET YOUR TRUE SELF OUT OF THE CAGE. 

See ya tomorrow, love every single one of you. 

Oh and in case you didn't hear it today, I am proud of you and I believe in you :)

 Chuck it in the Fuck it Bucket.

    Welcome readers. This blog is an ADHD-friendly outlet for me to share with you how the "chuck it in the fuck it bucket" method has never failed me, and it will never fail you. Now, that being said... this mindset and way of living is not for everyone. If you like being in your comfort zone, stability, promised results, close-minded, a plan, and consistency this is not for you. 

I REPEAT THIS BLOG IS NOT FOR WEAK ASS LITTLE BITCHES
WHO ARE OKAY WORKING THEIR LIVES AWAY AT A DESK JOB THEY HATE JUST SO THEY CAN RETIRE AT 60.

    It all comes down to what you value, and what kind of experience you wish to receive from this thing called life. If you value material things, having a 10-year plan at all times, and working your life away simply to let time pass you by in a state of survival and existence this blog may convince you to change your perspective. I'm talking to the people who never really felt like they fit the mold. The people who are constantly being sparked with joy by different hobbies and interests. The ones people call crazy or lazy because they just can't seem to pick one way of living, one profession, one main end goal. I'm here to tell you that this is in fact your greatest superpower. 

    When I was younger I used to beat myself up for not being like everyone else when it comes to societal mannerisms and norms. I was never the person to put in my two weeks, stay on top of my assignments, have proper time management, etc.  Now that I have given into this part of myself I have experienced so many magical things and progressed towards my dreams and goals faster than ever. I dug deep within myself to examine what was holding me back from doing what I was "supposed to do" That's when I learned about a thing called intuition. (Utah translation: The Mormons call it the holy ghost.) Call it what you will, but the bottom line is, It's simply that gut feeling you get when something is really wrong, or extremely right. Butterflies in your stomach are really just confirmation, and that sinking feeling of your heart dropping to your balls, is just a warning. By getting in tune with my OWN intuition through self-reflection, spiritual exploration, forest bathing, and lots of other shit ill talk about later, I have begun to form a sense of trust with my own soul. I use this as my compass to navigate me through this crazy ass world. For example, when I had a gut feeling to drop out of high school everyone looked at me like I belonged in a psych ward... but little did they know it would lead me to buy a van and travel, get a cosmetology degree at 17, solo travel at 19 across seas to somewhere I didn't even know the language of. It's a long story and I'll probably start recording some podcast episodes about it so you don't have to read it all (ADHD friendly remember ;), but trust me. I am living proof that if you stay in tune with yourself when choosing a course of action, path, or decision... you can't go wrong. 

When you feel called to do something just do it, even
if ur not "supposed to". As long as your intuition thinks it's a good idea and no one's committing murder, DO IT. Just take whatever it is, envision a little bucket behind you that's labeled "FUCK IT" and now incision you crumbling that "but what if" mindset and chuck that bitch in there. It's like the 321 method except ur just sending it balls to the walls, all odds against you. As long as you have your own back and trust yourself, it will never fail you. What is meant for you will never pass you by, and the more you surrender to yourself and your instincts, the higher the quality of life you will live. And cmon dude, the worlds fucked anyways, enjoy it while you can, for all you truly have is this very second in this very moment.