It's been a million years.

Sup Fuckers...

It's been a while, Like 6 months actually. Oops. 

So here's the update. Put it into simple terms because there is no way I'm typing all of that out. I started snow-making up at Snowbird 12am-12pm 4 days a week back to back. Which was one of the coolest, hardest, most rewarding, and most mentally demanding jobs I've ever worked. Moved out to a place on Foothill with two roommates off Facebook (brothers who work at Alta and are from Montana). Made some good memories and learned some hard lessons. When the season ended, I got a job at Retro Barbers part time and said Fuck it... I need more... So I joined the Union Local 140 as a welding apprentice. Life's been pretty busy haha.

Now that you're all caught up (Kinda), this is what's going on right now. I am leaving tomorrow night to Moab with some gal pals. The plan as of right now is to jump off some cliffs, climb some rocks (or should I say sandstone), and canyoneering. My adventures are always very poorly planned because I like to let whatever happens happen and have fun doing it regardless. It's my girlfriend's first time doing anything like this so they are in for a treat. I loveeeee sharing my passions with people, you never know what can set someone's soul on fire.

I'm making it a goal to start a podcast and vlogging... Hopefully first vlog up by this weekend. Honestly, life since the last time i posted on here has been a WILD ass ride. So many moving parts and changes. I starred in a short film, made new friends, cried, laughed, starved, ate. All the ups and downs. But I've been so much better about trusting the universe and trusting my gut through it all. If something didn't serve me or feel good i let that shit go. 

After all they do say "Let it go, or be dragged".

 I have released the attachment to the outcome of my goals and dreams, and by doing this, it's allowed more room for the real magic life has to offer. Everything always works out, and I'm excited to see what comes next.

The art of Manifestation.

 Hey dudes and dudettes

so, out in Colorado, while working at my sister's farmers market produce stand I was introduced to the owner of Eagle River Whiskey. I showed him my cinematography work and he loved it, so he hired me to make him a video of his products. THEN, another man came to the produce stand asking about who had made that video and if they could make his son a film of his wallpaper business. So of course I gave him my best pitch and I was hired! the next day I spent some time behind the scenes capturing the art of wallpapering and compiled a unique video to capture all the magic. Because of that video, I've been hired for another job out in Vail! so exciting the way manifestation works... I would've never gotten these opportunities if it wasn't for my spontaneous trip out to Colorado.

    After getting off the Amtrack in SLC, I decided to pack up my blue Honda Element and take her down to Moab. Originally the plan was to go for a day or two to indian creek and climb some cracks but I thought...hmmmmm I have all this spare time I could pack to be there for the rest of the month. So that I did and boy oh boy some magic definitely happened. My vision board from the beginning of the year became my reality. I made some really genuine friendships out in the creek with some fellow climbers. after a couple days of being a desert rat, camping under the stars, and floating rivers I met up with some buddies from Instagram. They invited me to come along on a rope swing and base jumping sesh.

I kid you not, the feeling of meeting up with a bunch of cool ass strangers in the middle of BFE to throw myself off a cliff edge was THEY MOST EXILERATINGLY freeing experience I have yet to obtain in my short 20 years living on this floating rock. There was so much laughter, a sense of family, juggling, snacks, and learning about rope systems. This was my version of heaven on earth. I will forever be grateful for this step in my journey. This is why I document what I do. This is exactly why I write blog posts. I want to share with the world how much magic happens when you sit back and trust yourself. The universe has your back... and one day you'll realize you are in fact the universe. I promise to be as authentic as I can while sharing my journey with you reader. I pinky promise.

Shortly after the rope swing, I had to head back to SLC to babysit some cute kiddos and reset my car setup for my long journey ahead. I have another Amtrack ticket from Greenriver UT to Glenwood Springs CO on Monday morning at 7:30 am. It's a one-way ticket because I just keep getting opportunity after opportunity for cinematography work out there. Once I'm finished I'll be heading back to Green River to pick up my car and trek on down to Moab where I'm sure I'll make more core memories and strengthen new friendships. Wow... and to think that at one point in life, I felt so stuck and hopeless... little did I know, everything I've ever dreamed of experiencing and having was already mine. All I needed to do was take a big deep breath and feel. Allow me to be vulnerable and scared. Allow me to not have it all planned out. Listen to my body when it says no, or to slow down. And just LET GO. 

This season of my life I'm focusing on being there for little Carly. Nurturing her playful energy and beaming smile. When she feels safe and watched after, anything is possible.

Here's some wisdom for you to keep in mind this week. Oh ya, and wish me luck! let the journey begin :)))

Don't you dare stop growing. Don't you dare stop glowing. Continue to be that beautiful beam of light that you are.

CLOSURE happens right after you accept that letting go and moving on is more important than projecting a fantasy of how the relationship could've been

Don't rush the process. Allow yourself to grow at your own pace. Stop comparing your life to what other people are doing.

When you feel like giving up, remember why you held on for so long in the first place.

One of the happiest moments in life is when you find the courage to let go of what you cannot change.

Love all of you little fuckers. Thank you for being you. And thank you for helping my dreams come true. I'm your cheerleader behind the scenes. You are NOT ALONE.

3AM Train Ticket

A LOT has happened since I last wrote. 

I signed up for work away, I accepted a job as a snowmaker at Snowbird, And I bought a microphone set to start transitioning my blog into a podcast/vlog! I also leave in a couple hours to Colorado for the weekend… on the Amtrak. Recently I’ve been noticing how Incredible change happens in my life when I decide to take control of what I do have power over instead of craving control over what I don't.

I’m so excited to see what happens during my time out there, I have a feeling it will be magical. Every time that you feel passionately to do something instead of fighting against it, try to go with it and see what happens… even though it’s scary and not always fun, it’s most definitely always worth it.

I’ll update you guys when I’m back in Utah! Wish me luck ✨AND REMEMBER… Stay positive. Forgive others. Invest in yourself. Trust your instincts. Lead with an open heart. Don't let others ruin your day. Do things that bring you joy. Be of service to humanity. Find your soul tribe. Love yourself.

Rejection is Devine Protection

Hello reader,

I hope you’ve been having a wonderful week. Recently I’ve felt like I’ve been in a funk of sorts. Low energy, sleeping a lot, not working out like usual. I’ve made a note to stay conscious about being nice to myself during this time and allowing my body and mind to rest without judgement. From my experience so far on this planet, if your soul, body, and mind is craving rest… life is preparing you for a big wish fulfillment or life event. 

As some of you know I have a 1997 Suzuki gxsr 750. I have been trying to repair this bike for quite some time now… and every time that it seems to be fixed and ready to pick up, it suddenly stops working. This has happened 3 or 4 times now. At first I was really bummed (I was excited to get riding before the season was over) but now I’m seeing this from a different perspective.

Rejection is Devine protection. Maybe this is the universes way of telling me this motorcycle is not meant to be a part of my journey right now. Then I got to thinking, well what was the point of me being so drawn to it? And then it clicked… I now had an investment. I could cash this in anytime for any adventure! So I said fuck it and decided to sell my bike. Once I have a buyer I’ll have an extra $5,000 in my bank account that I can use to travel the world. Maybe the bike not working out for me was just a way of the universe forcing me to save up for my big dreams and goals. A hard truth I’ve realized these past couple years is that TRULY if something is meant for you, it will NOT pass you by. Rejection is Devine protection.

Some other times I’ve said fuck it this past while have led me to some pretty epic adventures. Night climbing and star gazing, sunrise jogs, planning trips abroad. 

What a magical little universe we live in.

My goals over the next week are to practice being mindful about where my energy is spent.  

Life is too short to wake up in the morning with regrets. So love the people who treat you right and forget about the ones who don't. 

Learn not to give a damn. You'll be happier. 

Take the risk or lose the chance. 

Blue moon

Dear Readers, It’s been a while since I last wrote. So much has happened it’s actually insane. As tonight is a blue moon and a lightning storm, I finally decided to take the time to update. So… let’s start with how I quit my Job... and went on a road trip to the swell, Moab, and Joe's Valley. 

    What a magical journey that was! I saw multiple media showers and the northern lights… this fueled my soul and reignited a flame and passion for exploration.  I was nervous about making the move to quit my job because it was such good money and I saw an opportunity, but I felt it in my gut to leave so I trusted my intuition and did. Shortly after due to my newfound free time I was invited to go hang out with some friends at a lake. I was stoked and obviously attended. I found so much magic in this day and the people with whom I had reconnected. I felt like I found my soul tribe. My days since then have been full of adventure. Rock climbing, yoga, submitting peaks, getting lost in the dark night skies, storms, sunshine… and to top it off I even have a trip planned to go live in Puerto Escondido for a month with one of the friends I reconnected with. I’m currently making money through nannying which has been so freeing. I get to talk to the most beautiful wonderstruck souls and spend time outside. Life is working out just the way it needs to. Trust your intuition, do the scary thing, and have faith in yourself. And most of all, enjoy the journey! My current intentions are to go on grand adventures and be surrounded by individuals with high vibrations and whimsical thoughts. To be grateful for all that is in my present life. I am abundant and free. I am open to change and evolution. I will prioritize my spiritual and physical health. 

Here are some affirmations to say out loud this week:

You must find the courage to leave the table if respect is no longer being served.

Have unshakable faith in yourself to become everything you want to be. 

You owe it to your soul to fill your life with peace, love, and joy. 

Full moon

Hey readers.

Today I wanted to share some things that have been on my mind and some observations I’ve made about the collective energy at present hand.

From July 22-August 22 the sun will be entering Leo. Today and for the next month, there’s an infusion of exuberant, outgoing energy. The Sun is moving into the bold, creative sign of Leo. It’s a time to be inspired and encouraged to dive into your interests and what fires you up - and to let yourself shine. Today, I want every single one of you to give yourself permission. Focus on yourself and your body’s needs. If you’re feeling more restless than usual or you’re exhausted, choose to rest. Most of us humans in modern day times have been conditioned to feel guilty or ashamed for rest, as it is not a priority in the eyes of society. This is why it’s important to look after your own needs and do check ins with self. Do not feel guilty, do not feel ashamed… feel proud and empowered that you are choosing yourself. Every living thing in this world goes through cycles of growth, rest, death, and rebirth. Allow yourself to take the time needed in order to fully surrender to the flow.

If it makes anyone feel less alone… I had so many things I’m supposed to be doing for today written in my planner. My body woke up exhausted and was telling me to slow down and take a breathe. In the past when I’ve felt this way and ignored my intuition on what my body was needing, I end up burning out which then forces me to go into a much longer, deeper resting cycle that usually comes with some chaos and destruction… we’ve all been there. So, instead of repeating past patterns, I chucked all that anxiety and guilt into my fuck it bucket, moved my to do list to tomorrow, and took the day off :))

Now I’m simply relaxing today, sitting outside and listen to the birds, sipping on some tea, journaling… a slow peaceful evening is all I need. I am very grateful to be alive, what a wonderful journey indeed. I will also be making sure to set some clear intentions for this new energy in the new moon. I’m excited for this next chapter, I can feel it in my bones.

If you have a hard time doing self check ins, try to take a deep breathe and think of 3 things you’re grateful for, 3 things you love about yourself, and 3 emotions you’ve been feeling recently, and 3 words to describe how your body feels. These questions should help guide you into a more self aware state of mind in order to authentically check in with yourself.

ALWAYS REMEMBER

No matter how many mistakes you make or how slow you progress, you are still way ahead of everyone who isn't trying.

I LOVE YOU GUYS. I’m proud of you. Keep doing exactly what you need to be doing and everything will work out in your favor. ❤️

Brain Food

Sup you little fucks, 

I hope everyone is having a splendid day. My goal today has been to take things less seriously and calm my anxiety. So for those of you who don't know I'm a barber at Snipp's Mens Lounge up in Park City right now, and the clientele we get is CRAZYYY. These people are the topest of the dogs. I'm talking multi-millionaires who have houses all over the world, with multiple streams of passive income and all the time in the world to spare. As I was cutting one of my clients today he was telling me about a fragrance line that he's building right now. He's from LA but just moved to Utah and aside from owning some businesses he's also a realtor. So I decided to take the opportunity to say fuck it and tell him about my dream to become a videographer. MAN'S OFFERED TO CONTRACT ME INTO HIS NEW COMPANY AS A CONTENT CREATOR. See what happens when you carry yourself authentically?! I had all the reasons to not mention my passion for film, I don't have a website up and running yet, my prices are all over the place, I don't have all the equipment that other professionals do etc... so I took all of those, threw um in my fuck it buck it and brought it into discussion anyways. The thing that Ive been realizing recently is that the world is in fact not against me, I was against me. Now that I'm on my own team and i don't care what other people think, opportunities are just falling into my lap. And by being my authentic self i am attracting people into my life who love me for me and want to support me because of the kind of person i am. How cool is that? Once you surrender to the chaos, and get in the flow... things start happening. Dreams start coming true, and your reality changes right before your eyes.

While I was on my way home yesterday I was staring at the mountains with such admiration. Nature really puts everything into perspective for me, that's why I recommend forest bathing to anyone who struggles with tunnel vision or extreme anxiety. (I'll do another post furthering what I've discovered about forest bathing, and what that even means haha. Keep your eye out for it.)

Sorry ADHD moment, we went off track for a second there... As I was saying, I was on my way home looking at the mountains and it inspired me to write about how I felt at that moment... "To be yet another speck of a creature, on this mysterious, riveting floating matter, in an ever-expanding universe thus full of constant energetic flows, stillness, excitement, explosiveness, passion. We're all simply doing the perfect balanced yet unpredictable dance called life. How special, cherish every moment."

It's true... Instead of trying to be perfect, happy, and positive all the time... Just simply be, and you'll finally be set free. Simply learn to enjoy the rollercoaster at its every moment and you will be the one truly winning, truly living. 

 GO LET YOUR TRUE SELF OUT OF THE CAGE. 

See ya tomorrow, love every single one of you. 

Oh and in case you didn't hear it today, I am proud of you and I believe in you :)